Wednesday, August 11, 2010

forever changed..............

The past couple of days, I've been "composing" the random thoughts that seem to be constantly taunting me inside of my head and have yet attempted to express them in writing....until now. It's been a very difficult few days and my emotions seems to be right on the brink of eruption - with the tears coming all too quickly. Since I am the only follower of this blog.........I decided to put these random thoughts down on paper with the hope that when I am in the right frame of mind, I'll edit them into something more concrete - something more palatable. But for now - I am throwing caution into the wind and consider yourself forewarned if you happen to stumble upon this page.

On June 10th 1991, my life was "forever changed". It was on that day that I was given one of the most precious gifts that anyone could ever be given. A baby girl. And not just any baby girl - but exactly what I had "ordered", what I had prayed for. All 8.8 lbs of her came into this world with all ten fingers and all ten toes. In addition, she also had the blue eyes and blonde hair that I had dreamt of. She was perfect - absolutely beyond perfect.

Fast forward -------------> December 20th 2008, and my life was once more forever changed. That beautiful, vivacious, wonderful young woman left this world ........... and just as I was 17 years earlier when she took her first breath, I was with her and holding her when she took her very last breath. It truly was an honor and a privilege to be that person..........